The glimmers in life
The last few days have been triggering for me. I went on a ten-day trip to three different states in India, from Tamil Nadu to Karnataka to Kerala. I met my favourite people, ate so much good food, and spent my days doing only the things I like with the people I care about, and it was an all-time high feeling. I was surrounded by people all the time with so much love, comfort and care.
It was overwhelming!
It took time to settle in Bombay, where I live somewhat alone. After I was back, I had withdrawal symptoms, kind of how high emotional tides are taking their time to settle down.
These ten days I was out of meditation, lost touch to self and was influenced by emotions which was great but with drawbacks. I could see how my base emotions or peace frequently changed and felt uneasy. My mind wandered all the time, reminiscing the memories I made, the time I had and how hard it was to return to self, leaving your comfort people.
I have always loved alone time, but there was a withdrawal.
I had to retrain to be comfortable with myself to be peaceful again :)
So, I had things triggering me that made me wonder if there were good things that made my life glimmer, like the small things triggering me.
If I could focus on glimmers for a while, it could help me regain my outlook :)
So, I took time to prioritise a few things.
- Talking to mom
- Meditating
- Just spending more time with the self; everything else can wait.
- Chocolates?
- Music reminds me of sunrises, beaches, breezes and beautiful life.
- Talking to my comfort people
- Journaling and understanding about my thoughts and feelings
- One of my glimmers is hanging out without purpose, going out for a movie, having cinnamon buns, chai, and shopping!
Slowly, I am returning to self, but it makes me wonder how change can be beautiful. But at the same time, coming back to the base takes its own time, and everyone should allow it to :)
You do not have to rush, it’s a marathon not a sprint. You must live not just the tremendous high dopamine experiences but also the daily dull slow peaceful moments.
